Welcome to my home and thanks for taking the time to learn a little more about me. I hope that your visit here will make the time we share together a little more satisfying for the both of us.
I wake up every morning now a little surprised that I'm doing this. For the longest time I wondered if I was the problem? Wasn't I sexy enough? Was I not doing enough? Was I not doing it right? It wasn't long ago that I was a loving and faithful wife to a man who I believed to be as loyal and faithful as myself. I guess you live and you learn. Almost overnight, he went from chasing me around the house to barely touching me at all. I just wanted so badly for things to go back to the way they were. I learned all kinds of tricks and every treat. I offered myself to him in ways that would make a sailor blush. But nothing made a difference. Toys, erotic fiction, and porn became my only outlets.
Not once during the time we dated or during our marriage did any other man touch what belonged to him. It was his, and I was saving it for him. I'd never allowed any other man the pleasure of enjoying me in that way. If only I'd known then what I know now.
Do you know what it's like to wake up one morning and realize you don't recognize either the person staring back at you in the mirror anymore, or the one who sleeps across from you in bed. anymore. You're sharing a house with someone. But you don't really share in his or her life at all. Is it their fault? Is it yours? Or is it just life? What happened to the happy ending?
Despite it all, if you were to ask me today what I think of him, I would say that my husband is a good man. He works hard. He always has. Support has never been an issue. But the day I found out he's been seeing girls he met online for years was the day I was reborn again.
I know that sounds bitter. I'm not. What I am is a firm believer that everything in life happens for a reason. I've spent the past 20+ years saying, "I wish I had" and "I wonder what that's like". But I 'm going to spend the next little bit saying instead, "Maybe I shouldn't have done that". Lol. My new motto, "Why the f**k not!".